So, this is what my head sounds like, right now:
I am definitely feeling hypomanic.
I love this feeling.
It’s like winning the lottery.
And falling in love.
I feel invincible.
Truthfully, I feel a little high.
Despite my rule of only running when I’m being chased by predators, I feel like I could run a marathon right now.
And finish it.
It’s only Thursday and I’ve flown through this week’s to-do list. I’ve even started two new projects I didn’t think I’d get to until next week.
This feels like…JOY. Pure and simple.
Since I can’t actually bottle this feeling, and share it with those around me…
How do I chill the fuck out so that everyone around me can tolerate hypomanic me, and not want to punch me in my hypomanic face?
It’s a little easier at work. I can pop in my ear buds and lose myself in my music as I plug along with work.
I’m currently listening to my “Dance It Out” playlist.
But what happens when I go home to my fiancé who is dealing with some pretty major life stuff, and I’m all, “Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeee!” ???
It’s not fair for me to impose my mood on him.
I want to be supportive.
But we are on completely opposite ends of the spectrum, right now.
How can I be there for him while not putting him off with my frenetic energy? And how can I support him without depleting my own emotional resources?
Why hasn’t anyone written about that? Sheesh. Everything I’ve found is about the care and feeding of your bipolar partner. But what about being bipolar and taking care of your healthy partner? Where are those books?
I need some guidance here.