Well, this isn’t very encouraging.
I have several windows open on my laptop right now, and I’m flipping back and forth between them all.
I’m g chatting.
I’ve texted so much today that I’ve worn the battery out and my phone needs charging.
I have to multi-task, or right now, I will bounce around the room like an effing pinball.
Michael asked me last night if it’s okay to tell me when he can’t keep up with me. I told him, of course.
He said, “Honey, I can’t keep up with you, right now.”
I’m not sure many people can.
I can’t even keep up with my own thoughts.
I called Dr. Travelocity Gnome and he told me to take a Clonazepam. In fact, take two, they’re small (they’re only .5mg).
I still feel greeeeeeat, but have noticed that I’m getting a little impatient with people.
G’ah! Slap on a racing stripe and let’s get going, folks! Keep up!
Since I’m guessing this is an unreasonable expectation to have, and since I am prone to mixed states, I want to try to manage this before the Impending Doom Syndrome sneaks up on me.
This rapid cycling business is for the birds. It’s a fairly new development (it may have started about a year ago?), and I am not liking it one bit. I wish there was a return policy.
The Gnome says most of us bipolar two-ers develop it at some point.
He says to call him when something “big” happens in my life and we can discuss adjusting my medications.
“Traveling cross country? Gimme a call.”
“A few months before your wedding? Gimme a call.”
“You get the idea.”
I do get the idea. But I am bearing in mind that this is a doctor who has “Better Living Through Chemistry” written on his Rx pad. I am not kidding. I once asked him if there was anything, nutritionally that I should consider with this diagnosis, and this was basically his response:
So, my questions to my fellow bipolar rollers are as follows:
1. Have you found there to be any nutritional factors in controlling (or at least managing) symptoms? Should I be considering any dietary restrictions?
2. Are there any techniques (or diversions?) you’ve learned, that help you manage hypomania?
3. Is it going to be possible for me to ride it out without it turning into an ugly mixed state every time–which, for me, is the most terrifying part of this disorder?
4. Am I always going to have to adjust my meds whenever life happens?
I’m seeing the new shrink Tuesday morning, so, we’ll see where he stands on all of this. In the meantime, I would love to know your thoughts…
Happy (Hypomanic) Friday!